Here are some new photos of Pink, Carey Hart and their daughter Willow in LA yesterday. Aren’t these cute? I love when we have new photos of Pink with her baby girl. Are you surprised Willow is a blonde? I am. I didn’t even remember that Pink is a natural blonde too. Anyway, cute photos, cute baby, so what else is new with Pink? She had a new radio interview, and she was talking about how her life has changed now that she’s a mom. No more cigs, no more whiskey. Good girl.
Motherhood hasn’t stopped Pink from living it up on a regular basis, but her ways of celebrating have indeed been altered.
Explaining that it’s “so much cooler” adding daughter Willow Sage to her and hubby Carey Hart‘s travel group, the pop singer, 32,told Philadelphia’s Q102 radio station on Wednesday, “We wake up and dance. [We] party naked in the hotel room.”
But she goes on to say that late nights with her little one in tow aren’t quite the same as the ones had when it was just with Hart, 36.
“It’s a different kind of partying,” Pink says, of what now consists of “diapers and underwear.”
Dropping her raging rituals included kicking her vices to the curb.
“It used to be whiskey, tears and cigarettes,” she says. “Now it’s [my baby’s] kind of tears, no cigarettes and the color of poop. Pure joy. I miss the whiskey, not the cigarettes.”
The “Raise Your Glass” singer’s new upbeat, healthier outlook on life will be reflected in her new album, The Truth About Love, slated to drop in September.
“I do a lot of dancing now with [Willow] and I’m just happier,” she says. “This album is a lot of rock and roll but it reflects that there’s a dance party in our house … You’re career goes up and down, but … at the end of the day, if I didn’t do another thing, I’m blessed. I like myself more than I used to.”
Willow is about 13 months old, so it’s possible the “no whiskey” thing could be a breastfeeding issue. But why couldn’t Pink have a whiskey anyway? Is the “no whiskey” thing more about “being a good mother”? Sigh… it’s been a while since I’ve had a drink too. I stopped drinking last year (for the most part – I had wine on Thanksgiving, and a few sips of a daiquiri a few months ago) and I haven’t really missed it that much. I gave it up for a diet/get-my-life-together thing, and once I stopped, I was fine. But the other day I really wanted a summery, fruity, rum-based cocktail but I didn’t have any mixers so I forgot about it. Now that I’ve read this Pink story, I’m thinking about how nice it would be to have some Jack Daniels on the rocks. I swear I barely think about alcohol these days, but maybe I should just go ahead and have a cocktail and stop being so f–king neurotic about it? *quietly obsessing*
We should do a poll. “Should Kaiser have a cocktail and stop being so g–damn neurotic?”
Photos courtesy of Fame/Flynet.
She is a cutie.. (the baby too…lol)
I love Pink and Carey. I like their love story and how they found their way back to each other.
Cute family.
Yeah, they do have a nice love story and they seem really tight now. Willow is so adorable!
Kaiser…as long as a drink doesn’t lead to a binge, go for it!
I think they are a good match – and their daughter just looks like Pink! What a cutie!
Yes, she’s a little mini Pink! So cute 🙂
I love Pink and she is smart, funny, talented and won’t take any crap! Go Pink, and her outfit, very Pink-ish only she could get away with that…!!!!!!
Yes! And I love that they are all punked out but she dresses her little girl in regular people pink Gap clothes!
And Corey holding a diaper bag with his sleeves is so adorable! Makes me like tatoos 🙂
Unless you have trouble with alcohol and you just want a drink – go have an f-ing drink! Just eat 100 less calories and you’ll be fine!
Yes ma’am — it’s summer: allow yourself the indulgence of a nice, chilly, summertime cocktail, and give yourself permission to NOT feel badly about it!
Go for it, actually, have a voddy and cranberry on ice with a slice of lime.
Pink posted a photo on twitter via instagram not too long ago of her taking a break during filming (a music video, I believe) of her nursing. At least I think it wasn’t that long ago, but it’s rainy and I’m sleepy so who knows? Anyways, she may be doing the extended breast feeding thing, so that’s why she isn’t drinking. Although she COULD drink if she’s nursing, but maybe she feels it’s healthier not to? I’m sorry, my thoughts are all running together this morning. I’m a big jumbled mess 🙂
I saw that as well! I don’t think extended breast feeding is really til after 2 years old though, a 13 month old is still a baby 🙂
While I agree with that, you’d be surprised at how many people think that nursing your child after they hit 1 is “crazy.” The WHO recommends until 2, so I’m going to (hopefully) go by that.
Samigirl — I agree, lots of people do think it’s weird to breastfeed past 1. I never realized this until I foolishly read some comments on an article about extended bf’ing, and the sheer number of comments about how it was “sick” to breastfeed a child past X age (usually 12 or 18 months) was astounding. I nursed my first child until he was nearly 3, and didn’t think anything of it. Now thanks to the internet, I realize I’m a perverted freak who clearly got my kicks breastfeeding my practically adult son. Ha!
@Rachel, what upsets me the most is when they say, “I bet she’s enjoying it! SICK!”
You know what? Yes, I enjoy nursing my daughter. In fact, I LOVE nursing her. Few things make me as happy as nourishing my daughter, seeing that sweet little grin on her face when she gets her nursies. If that makes me sick, then I’m ok with it.
Samigirl — me, too! I’m currently nursing my 11 month old son, and it’s just a joy. I think it’s so soothing and bonding and sweet. Anyone who finds something sexual in breastfeeding obviously has some deep-seated issues they need to address.
I dont know how to reply to @samigirl or rachel, so I am doing this.
Thanks for saying that about breast feeding. I am pregnant and while I really want to breast feed, part of me was worried that I would hate it or be grossed out by it. I know that part of that is that I am allergic to dairy products, so the idea of feeding my little one milk just seems awful. I gag when my husband drinks milk, to give that some perspective.
But the other part is def due to a number of other factors, mostly societal. Its not about the judgment of others so much as worrying about the reality of it. I just have so many questions and concerns, some of them so ridiculous, but I hate the mommy forums cuz people are cray cray.
ANYWAYS- thank you both for saying how great it is, and how its not “perverted” and how it is a bonding time between you and your child. Hearing things like this goes a long way towards making me feel a lot better about it. 🙂
@moxy, breastfeeding is definitely making a comeback! Don’t feel shame in something your body is made to do. The first 6-8 weeks will probably be super difficult, but stick to it. I promise, you won’t disappointed. Congrats and good luck, sister! Please keep us updated on your pregnancy!
I breast fed each of mine for two years each. I even BF through my second pregnancy as my son was born almost exactly two years after his sister.
For me, it was the most awesome, lovely, bonding experience I have ever had.
I have asthma and terrible allergies and was determined to BF for my kids. They are 12 and 14 now and literally have maybe been on antibiotics once, have no asthma, no allergies and never get sick.
It’s great go for it!
However, if it isn’t for you and you hate it do what you deem best for your child. No judgment here. Was the best thing I ever did, IMO
To all the bloggers commenting on breastfeeding & whether or not it’s “shameful/wrong/whatever” for breastfeeding past one year & considering bf’ing till your child is two years old:
I’ll preface this by saying I’m not a mother, & have never had a child….but I am an RN, & have studied this subject. I always like to “choose/go with” the explanation that makes the most sense…(I’m a common-sense type person). Please do not take that I’m being condescending, because I’M NOT.
To me, we women have breasts for a reason! We are mammals, & mammals feed their offspring by producing MILK. Yes, breasts are pretty, get mens’ attention and all that….but that is not the reason we have breasts. We have breasts that produce milk for one reason, and ONE REASON ONLY.
If any of you feel shameful/”not right”/reluctant/whatever for wanting to breastfeed your child (or future child) for however long you think/desire….DO NOT! Nature/God gave us breasts for that reason.
TO HELL w/what the public at large/society “may think” of how you best choose to raise and nourish your precious child! It makes the most sense to me to use what we’ve been given through nature/our creator for THE REAL PURPOSE of such. Study after study reinforces breastfeeding….and do it for however long YOU CHOOSE/FEEL IS RIGHT. To me, being a good mother is also inclusive of taking a stand for what is best for your child! Damn societal pressures/expectations.
End of rant…thank you for your understanding.
I just needed to reply to you becuase of this part: ” What upsets me the most is when they say, “I bet she’s enjoying it! SICK!” ”
Thats just eff ing bizarre. I don’t have kids, but what the heck is wrong with people if they think that way? Its a mother feeding child! Why does everyone have to make everything sexual?
Ugh!
One cocktail is OK! Why not doing every now and then something that makes us happy? If that’s a cocktail, then so be it!
I’m with you! I love nursing my 15 month old son and plan on letting him nurse until he’s ready to wean. It has been the most beautiful and bonding experience of my life!
I read the other day, in a different article that she is still nursing…so maybe that’s why she isn’t drinking the whiskey. I also think Pink was a very hard core drinker, for her maybe its all or nothing…like why drink unless you’re going to get hammered….so she just chooses not to…
Yes, you should have a cocktail and stop being so neurotic about it. I gave up drinking about a year ago for similar reasons, but last night the boy brought home a bottle of great rye and I gave in and had a drink. It was lovely.
I had to stop drinking whiskey when I had kids cause that’s a crazy drunk and that’s where the tears she mentioned come in. I’m sure she still has a drink occasionally but the drink has changed.
Ditto this. I still have wine or beer or the aforementioned fruity rum drink every now and then but whiskey… whiskey is for serious drinkin’, and that’s just not part of my nursing momma playbook. Like, I drink a whiskey, one of two things is going to happen: either I’m already buzzed, or ANOTHER whiskey follows.
For sure!!! So long as it’s not a problem for you then go right ahead… You only have one life, you might as well live it 🙂
have the drink.
…why wouldn’t she be breastfeeding at 13 months? My daughter and Willow are only a few weeks apart and we’re still breastfeeding. The average age is around 18 month to wean and the AAP says its best til 2 years old. Its not like the nutrients or health benefits magically disappear at a year 🙂
Also, you are allowed to have a few drinks while you’re breast feeding as long as you’re not getting full out sloshed, my doctor and my daughters doctor both said a few glasses of wine/bottles of beer are totally fine, and in fact encourages breastfeeding mothers to drink at least one dark lager a day to help keep their supply up.
But its great to see Pink loving life, she’s always been one of my favorites! And in those bottom pictures its crazy how much my daughter and Willow look similar!
Totally responded to your response to me before I saw this! I love that you’re still nursing. I didn’t nurse my son so I never realized how difficult it could be. I thought it was just, pop out a boob and be done with it. It’s definitely not that easy, but it is rewarding 🙂
My first child didn’t have the correct suckling motion and couldn’t latch on so she wasn’t nurse more than a few days, but I pumped for four months with her and it was the hardest thing I’ve done. My youngest latched on like a pro, but it is a lot more than just pulling out your boob! Good luck with yours and I promise you it does get better, the first few weeks are awful and confusing but by 6 weeks its cake! I hope to be able to be as lucky with my future kids as I was with my second daughter.
I will say though that I do plan on trying to make it to two with her, but the biting and lack of support for it makes it hard. I thought child birth was bad, but a random bite on your nipple as your half asleep is a million times worse! <3
We are only at 11 weeks, so I haven’t gotten the biting yet! I’m definitely not excited for it though. I pumped for my son too. He REFUSED to latch. The first thing he had was a bottle of sugar water (I had major complications after he was born), so I really can’t blame him 🙂
Confession time. Celebitchy is my mommy forum. I always read baby and breast feeding articles to hear what moms have to say about it. Thanks for easing my mind these past few months guys!
– although those Jessica Simpson ones, where people were talking about all their complications… I should have skipped those.
This is what happened with the biting thing. She bit me hard once, scared me so bad I screamed loud. I think it scared her so bad she never did it again.
Nursing while pregnant is so painful, just the worst.
Plugged ducts are excruciating as well. I had two in four years.
I think it is a huge help to have a mommy group that is a nursing group. I had one at my local natural baby store in Pasadena. Great for support, as is a good friend who has experience.
At least you always have food for baby with you, all you need are diapers and wipes!
@moxylady007: I know! The pregnancy/baby posts always get the most opinionated comments…that makes them the best!
Don’t sweat it for the bfing. Just do what feels natural. I really wanted to bf and set a goal of 6mos. It’s been 18mos now! I didn’t plan it that way…but now I’m just too lazy to wean! BFing just makes life easier for us. When babe is sick/teething etc… I am so grateful to be able to give her the boob.
I had terrible problems nursing my son (he didn’t latch well either) so its nice to hear that just b/c one has trouble with #1 doesn’t mean that you’ll necessarily have problems with #2. That is actually one reason I’m hesitant to have another. Not being able to nurse for more than 6 weeks honestly broke my heart & I don’t know if I could go through that again
Bodhi, baby #2 latched still attached to the placenta (we delayed cord cutting). She’s a dream to nurse. I hate that I couldn’t nurse my little man, but such is life. I bet you’ll do great if you have another!
LOVE PINK!! So does Toddles – Raise Your Glass is his favorite video. I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve seen it. He comes up, climbs into my lap, and raises his arms and says “glass.” It’s ADORABLE!
They are such an adorable family. I’m so happy for all of them that everything worked out. 🙂
Oh, and Kaiser? Have that drink! (As long as it won’t lead to a Blohan-esque spiral. Speaking of, do we have any new-ish Blohan stuff? I’m kind of wrung out from all the TomKat/CO$ stuff. I need a “point and laugh” story.)
That’s so cute, Bellaluna! My son jams to Pink too. And Ke$ha, lol. 🙂
edit, yes, I totally commented under the wrong one, lol. I’m TIRED this morning.
Sami – I know who you meant. 😉 I nursed all of mine until they self-weaned (a little over 2 years for the two older ones, and 13 months for the baby).
It IS hard. Yes, babies have an innate suckling instinct. But nursing is still a “learned” behaviour for both mother and baby.
@original bellaluna: I love your stories about Toddles. I remember one where you said he’d follow you into the bathroom and then do the toilet paper dance with the dog. lol. I have no idea what the real subject was at the time, but that story cracked me up!
Question: How did self-weaning evolve? My babe is still nursing at 18mos and I’d like to stop at 2 years, but she doesn’t show any signs of slowing down.
@normandes, depends on the kiddo. My daughter did not want to wean even at two, but I had a newborn so I phased her out. It was kind of sad as she got cut down to night time only and had to wean when my son was born. She would look at him nursing and I’d feel terrible.
Anyway, my son self weaned around 22 months or so, he went to am, pm and nap, then just night and then just kind of stopped and went for food and regular drinks.
Kiddo one always had a strong nursing bond and wanted to nurse all the time while number two just kind of petered out. They both remain very hug filled and snugly and kiss mom at 12 and 14 and I attribute some of that to the way we raised them.
Never had anything but breast milk and bottles only after 3 months when I was gone at work.
I had my whole freezer of liquid gold.
@OT: Thanks! I want to do it gently, but I’m bracing myself for a hard battle!
Kaiser should start drinking cold beer and both of us could have a cold beer drinking contest!!!
I just love this family! They’re adorable.
Me too!
Oh my, I don’t know if I could handle my crazy life without a nice adult cocktail.
A nice Margarita, is such a positive way to end my day when its been ugly.
Though I only like the cocktails in the Summertime.
I rarely, if ever, drink during the Winter months.
(And the baby Willow… is a cutie!)
Kaiser, I quit drinking for two years when I was balls out training for marathons but after that, I allowed myself two glasses of wine with dinner, YEAH TWO OF THEM and the South Beach Diet can kiss my toned tooshie.
I like the taste of wine with my food and I like the relaxed feeling but I still work out five times a week because I want to. So have a glass of wine girlie, you and all of us here deserve it.
This family is so darn cute. Just noticed Willow is Pinks mini-me.That Pink expression is priceless.
gorgeous family, nice to see them all so happy. she’s a brilliant live act. They are well loved in aus. too
I LOVE them!!!! They got their shit together BEFORE they had a baby. They all seem tight!
I still breastfeed my 18mo old and I enjoy a good wine or beer when I want.
I love her little wispy blonde hair. Very sweet looking baby.
I am going to take the least popular stance and say “nah” on the drink. After you have gone this long one drink will probably just make you feel like crap. It will also make it easier to justify one more…and then one or two tomorrow…kind of like when you are trying to eat healthy and decided to splurge on pancakes. You just feel disgustingly gross afterwards – but then the next week you forget how disgustingly gross you felt and want those fluffy nap-inducing carbs again…
Yeah I felt like crap when I drank a beer for the first time after my 3 year hiatus (thanks back to back pregnancies! HA!) but wine always seems to sit well with me lol Still haven’t tried any hard liquor though.
I’m with you on the advice. In fact I literally just got back from my therapist who specializes in alcohol addiction (not why I see her although I coincidentally have been off booze since October, also to see what it would do for my overall health and well being).
She said it takes 6-24 months after quitting drinking for your body/brain to regain its equilibrium so that drinking sooner than 24 months after stopping doesn’t give you a true picture of how stopping has affected you. I told her that I’ve recently realized that I feel better than I have in years, not even thinking it was connected to quitting alcohol, but she said it could very well be a key factor.
I also have rarely had any cravings since stopping, although last weekend at the beach all my friends were drinking cold shandy beers and for about a minute I considered joining in on the refreshment. Then I thought ahead to how it would ultimately tire me out and I’d probably be depressed the next day…and the craving passed. Caffeine is my only vice these days.
It doesn’t say she doesn’t drink. Its says she doesn’t drink whiskey. A lot of people have an adverse reaction to whiskey. Maybe she still indulges in a cocktail every now and then.
She is probably still breastfeeding thought.
I just love her and her happy little family 🙂
only Pink would be stuntin’ with her singnature pink punk rock hair & matching ‘pink’ lil’ nugget.
she’s so badass. this pic is the polar opposite of the ones w. Vicky Becks stuntin’ with lil’ Harper.
loves. 😀
I too have a couple of glasses of red with dinner, sometimes white in the summer if it’s hot. It’s actually healthy to have a glass or two, so you go girl!
Have a drink… it’s summer and life is good. Just don’t overdo it or you’ll regret it. I know, I’ve been there. On a different note, I love P!NK… I went to a spa a few years ago and she was there. She is very comfortable with herself, was very accessible to the other guests, really genuine. None of the clandestine creeping around that other entertainers do to make it seem like they can’t be bothered with fans or paparazzi. She’s the real deal.
I would say that if you have to take a poll on whether or not to have a drink, then it really isn’t important to you and you really don’t feel like it. You just like the idea of it (a Sex and The City fantasy of sitting on a patio looking fabulous and being oggled by shirtless, greased up men comes to mind). My guess – it will be disappointing and won’t live up to the hype. And you will worry about the calories 🙂
Yes! Have a cocktail. I recommend a blackberry gin fizz. Pureed then strained fresh blackberry juice, fresh lime juice, gin, club soda. Big glass, lots of ice. Straw. There you go!
ETA: But only have it if you’re not going to obsess about it afterwards!!
mmm, hmmmm i LOVE blackberries! great recipe, thanx!
how about a cucumber-tini?
i feel cooler just thinking about it. 😛
Wow, that drink sounds amazing! Yum!
Ditch cocktails, Kaiser, they are gross. Drink the pure thing!
Can i just say i totally get what she says better. I was kind of a mess before and still am a work in prrogress, but I’m totally in control (thanking God too) with my baby girl. Knowing that you’re a kick ass mom pretty much makes a whole shitty existence worthwhile =D
Hmm, I say go for something sweet and summery. I’m particularly fond of any kind of frozen blended cocktail, like a nice tart margarita. I say have a drink and get it out of your system for a few months. One or two drinks now and again won’t hurt anything. Cheers!
Not a whiskey drinker, but loved my martinis before I became a mom. At 13 months, not all kids are sleeping through the night. Have you ever tried to get up in the middle of the night to take care of your kid after having a few martinis? Even if you’re not drunk or nursing the beginnings of a hangover, it’s hard.
Willow is so adorable! Can she marry little Leo 22 years from now? lol!
I’d put Willuw with Flynn.
“Whiskey, tears and cigarettes” makes me think of drama and maybe alcoholism. If she’s decided not to drink because she thinks she’s a better mom when she doesn’t, then good for her. She makes it clear that she’s happier now that she doesn’t. I’ve seen too much of the destruction alcohol can cause families (and not only mine) to be anything other than happy when any parent stops drinking.
Anyway, I love that baby’s expression. “You lookin’ at me?”
They’re so cute together, the whole family <3
Kaiser- drink the whiskey girl! I’m in the same boat.. I’m working out every day and weirdly my vices started to go away and I don’t really think about booze and cookies anymore 🙂 buuuut yesterday was so hot here in Portland Or I walked down to the corner watering hole, ordered a Jameson on the rocks and sat on the patio and just said ” ahhhhh” then I got up this am and ran 4 miles. When will I have another drink? Who knows? The lovely part is it doesn’t really matter 🙂 I think when you’re 98% healthy you can be 2% naughty!
@Kaiser- drink the whiskey girl! I’m in the same boat.. I’m working out every day and weirdly my vices started to go away and I don’t really think about booze and cookies anymore 🙂 buuuut yesterday was so hot here in Portland Or I walked down to the corner watering hole, ordered a Jameson on the rocks and sat on the patio and just said ” ahhhhh” then I got up this am and ran 4 miles. When will I have another drink? Who knows? The lovely part is it doesn’t really matter 🙂 I think when you’re 98% healthy you can be 2% naughty!
Parents need booze more than anybody…just a drink at the end of the night to calm frazzled nerves.
No kidding, kids are in bed fast asleep and then my hubbie and I have a sit down with a glass of wine usually or maybe a vodka/cranberry praise the Lord!
I think the no whiskey thing is about being a good parent and not being drunk when you’re supposed to be taking care of a baby. I mean, I used to smoke and drink a lot but after having a kid I never drink more than a glass of wine a day, but I do that a couple times a week, so yeah, have a drink!
wicked good summery rum-based cocktail:
dark ‘n’ stormy
1/3 goslings dark rum;
1/3 goslings diet ginger beer;
i prefer to cut it with 1/3 plain seltzer;
lime wedge
I agree I don’t miss cigarettes either. They’re a sh-t drug. They don’t even get you wasted.
me too, Chris!
after Giuliani put the kebosh on smoking in bars/lounges in NYC
i was dunzo.
i l-o-v-e-d my smokes…but that whole bakin’ either outside in the heat or freezin’ ur ass off in the winter to puff was enough reason for me to quit.
plus, i remember when cigs where like a buck 25. i’d be damned if i was gonna pay $8-10 for them! *pst* 😈
I love that they match! So cute!
Go for it Kaiser!
I’m just wondering why her hands in her pocket? I hold my baby like that all the time but I would be way too scared to put my other hand in my pocket. Especially over cement! She’s brave!
“Should Kaiser have a cocktail and stop being so g–damn neurotic?”
Drink! Drink! Drink!
J/k
One drink won’t hurt.
I love Funhouse, the extremely honest album based on their breakup. She’s so talented.
That is the toughest looking dude I’ve ever seen carrying a diaper bag. Good for him looks like they’re both trying to be good parents.
I now work part time in our mom/baby unit, and some of the younger new dads look a lot like him-tattoos everywhere, just very tough looking. And to see them with their newborns-especially if they’re girls-they’re really just the biggest, mushiest softies.It’s quite adorable.
Aww, That baby is the cutest!
Oh Kaiser, yes, do have a drink. Fruity and rummy, just the ticket. Moderation in all things.
For the love of god, go and have a drink. You don’t need to give up alcohol altogether in order to be fit and energetic and healthy. As we all know by now stuff like red wine actually has great health benefits. Pleasure in general also has health benefits. I’ll tell you a funny story I heard recently. An acquaintance of mine had quit smoking a few months earlier but due to pressure at work etc. had started smoking again, nothing much, 4 or 5 of those slim cigarettes a day, but she was still hugely disappointed in herself and miserable. After speaking to a doctor about this (a family friend) he told her that she was probably causing herself more damage by freaking out and stressing out all day long than by having the odd cigarette.
Yes Pink is naturally blonde and yes the baby has blonde hair….but you do realize that the hair colour can change right????? I was born with blonde hair when I was baby, up until I was about 2. Maybe a little younger, then my hair went to brown and straight.
oh u should definitly have a yummy fruity cocktail! Enjoy! its summer!!!
I’m a sucker for hard asses who become amazing mothers. I did not like Angelina Jolie until Maddox came along. The two of them together get me every time – the pic with Angelina huge with the twins pulling Maddox into her bossom is adorable. He’s still my fav of the 6.
Pink rules…
And I understand the no booze life. For me, when I would have even one glass of wine I felt physically out of whack hours later. I was also more likely to eat junk food. I kinda obstain from unatural sugar in general and my moods and blood sugar and cravings are all good. So yeah… I get it.
But it’s hard when summer is here and those fancy blue drinks are being brought around by sexy tanned men while I’m stretched out in a deck lounge. It ain’t happenin… but a girl can dream. lol