One of Michael Jackson’s former British bodyguards claims that he had a secret girlfriend. Matt Fiddes declines to identify her, and also talks at length about Michael’s drug addiction. Problem is, the guy seems to be lying. Sky news has a short clip of their interview with him, and he comes across as dishonest. At several points he has pronounced pauses and “um”s combined with looking downward, one of the classic signs of searching for something to say. And Fiddes doesn’t say anything that hasn’t already been reported in the media in terms of the drug use.
Michael Jackson’s former British bodyguard says the star had a girlfriend in the months before he died, and recalled “confiscating” bags of prescription medicine from the singer out of fear that he might die. Matt Fiddes, a 30-year-old martial arts expert from southwest England, laid full blame for Jackson’s death on doctors who supplied him with prescription medicines, which many suspect lead to heart failure. Fiddes said the doctors had Jackson’s “blood on their hands”.
Fiddes was introduced to Jackson by magician Uri Geller about a decade ago, according to his interview with CBS News’ partner network Sky News. “I never witnessed him actually taking drugs but I knew they were there, and I confiscated packages, and Uri did too,” said Fiddes. “Uri confiscated injection equipment from his room… Uri would scream at Michael, you know, intensely, to stop doing this but we were getting pushed out (by the doctors).”
“We went to great efforts to keep the doctors away. But as soon as we said anything and it got back to Michael, Michael would have a screaming fit that we were interfering with his private life, that he knew what he was doing,” said Fiddes, adding that he believes the star was “in denial.” … “As far as I’m concerned they have Michael’s blood on their hands,” he said of the doctors. “They know what they’ve done and there’s people out there who could have helped, could have stepped in, but didn’t do for financial reasons.” … Fiddes said Jackson was not a “druggie,” and did not use illicit narcotics like cocaine, but that he was addicted to pain killers.
Fiddes would not name Jackson’s alleged secret girlfriend, but said she was “someone special” to the global pop star, and that they had known each other for some time. “I’m not going to name who she is but I think the family were aware that there was someone special in his life who he loved and adored and had his ups and downs with.
“I don’t know how long they’ve been a couple. I know she’s been with him for some time in different capacities but… it’s up to her if she wants it to come out or the family to speak about this very private information.”
[From CBS News]
I’m assuming the person Fiddes is referencing is Grace Rwaramba, one of the Jackson children’s former nannies. It’s been rumored off and on for years that they were secretly together, though nothing ever came of it. But that would make sense given Fiddes comment about Jackson being with the secret girlfriend in “different capacities.”
It sounds to me like this guy is doing nothing more than repeating rumors – both those about Michael’s health and person life. He’s jumping on board and capitalizing while he can, like a lot of other people have done and will continue to do. He seems shifty and like he’s working far too hard to answer relatively simple questions. Especially considering you’d think the guy had talked about Michael a lot lately – this stuff shouldn’t take so long to come to him. He also paints himself in a really heroic light, in terms of trying to save Jackson and keep him away from drugs, while castigating others. It’s like he pulled out the most recent “News of the World” and decided to repeat pages 4 -6 and see if anyone bought it.
I’d agree, little credibility. He has associated himself with Geller, who last week said MJ never used drugs. This weeks he claims to be his only attempted savior.
I doubt very much that anyone alive would believe for one second that Michael Jackson ever actually had sex with a woman. Let’s get real here.
Secret fag hag more likely
Sociopath alert!!!
I absolutely believe Michael Jackson was gay, which was of course totally unacceptable in his family, just adding to his sad self-loathing.
He had a secret girlfriend about like I have a secret vault of money!
Gay drug addict alert!
‘Stasia, It amazes me how some people can’t accept MJ was gay. I was watching ‘Obessed’ from the makers of Intervention and I picked up on a gay guy and the husband thought me paranoid. 30 mins into the show and he strolled into a counseling session with boyfriend. I can just tell. Like knowing Gwyneth Paltrow and Nicole Kidman want to be Grace Kelly and Michael Jackson wanting to be Liz Taylor. Madonna wanting to be Marlene Dietrich, etc. Just open your eyes, ya know?
I wonder who paid him to say MJ had a gf.
i think mj may have had deeper and more complex issues than simply being gay… he may have been asexual even… it’s hard to say, the man is a psychological mystery. but seriously blueskies, the guy is dead… can you show some respect?
i’d like to believe this guy about the secret girlfriend, but it doesn’t sound plausable… i wonder why he’d be lying though… he may have good intentions (ie: trying to boost mj’s image) which i think is commendible…
What..he didnt mention the faboo dinner parties, that MJ and his “gf” had with Tom and Katie, John and Kelly and Will and Jada? Oh, what a gay time was had at those parties!
Geez!!! The guy is dead. Show some respect. Would you like to be talked like that when you’re gone? If he was gay or not, that’s his problem. Nobody has nothing to do with it. Get over and stop being so rude and mean to people that you don’t even know. If you have a gay radar, BlueSkies, good for you. But try to keep it to yourself. I also hope that you never have to deal with a gay drug addict on your family. I’m saying that cause i have one cousin exactly that way but i still love him very much cause he’s a wonderful person inside and out. My only regret is that he has to live in a world full of awful people.
I have this theory , that MJ has suffered from child abuse himself, and yet somehow he found in his lost childhood his greatest escape, he just locked himself in there and never got out! Despite of all his talent ,fame and success that followed , it´s like he remained that 6 years old boy and never allowed himself to grow up!!!
I truly believe he was never the monster ppl tried to make him seem to be, just a troubled boy with an AMAZING heart and talent…and that´s how I´ll remember Michael Jackson!
It’s easy to say whatever you like after they’re dead.
Emily, hon—you need to realize something; being dead doesn’t give anyone a free pass. Death does not automatically infer morals and good character on anyone. It does not ERASE what the person did or was in life! If you can’t stand hearing some probable hard truths about MJ in here—which btw haven’t been said in a mean way—then you might oughta pass these stories by, k?
And seriously, in all honesty without snark, if MJ is aware of what people are saying about him right now I’m gonna hazard a guess that he’s got bigger problems to deal with than gossip. Just sayin.
Sorry, guys, I mean no disrespect. This is a celeb bitch blogsite. Let me go on this one.
Michael essentially had the mindset of a prepubescent boy, so I think it’s hard for us to label him as “gay”. He was being chased by screaming teenage girls and women by the time he was 10 years old. It’s no wonder that he was unable to mature normally and develop relationships with people (be they male or female) as most others would. Couple that with the fact that his father made him heinously insecure about how he looked.
The boys who were allegedly molested by Jackson have even said themselves that they felt they had more knowledge of “the birds and the bees” than the singer himself. I, like many others, think that Jackson had no real notion of adult sexuality (straight or gay), and could only grasp (or perhaps formulate his own) ideas of the love shared between a parent and child. I have little doubt that his relationships with children (small boys) verged on what we would view as socially unacceptable, but I don’t think that these were necessarily “sexual” relationships–I don’t believe that MJ had a distinct sexual preference for young boys. I like to think that he was struggling with his lost childhood and a need to compensate for it; adolescent, sexual feelings that could not develop properly; and a need to recreate a child/parent-like bond that he so desperately desired. Those are very hard feelings to sort out at once. Toss in heavy painkillers, an ever-present spotlight, and money-hungry leeches…there’s no way anyone could navigate such waters with a level head.
I’m no psych student. I don’t know whether pedophilia is necessarily brought on by a sexual “attraction” to children, or whether it develops as a result of circumstances similar to MJ’s (without necessarily being an attraction, but a desire to seek out the companionship of children as a result of an inability to bond with adults). A little from column A, a little from column B, maybe? I adore and am inspired by MJ. But it is highly plausible that he was what society would deem a pedophile. Many of us however, made (and continue to make) excuses for him, because he was rich, famous, had a tormented childhood, was a BRILLIANT artist etc. And a good chunk of us picture the average pedophile to be some balding, potbellied guy hanging out at playgrounds, far removed from the public eye. And it’s hard to negotiate these two images. We quickly write any criminals off as “evil”, but how often do we take the time to consider the idea that they were just as troubled as MJ? I think many are in denial of Jackson’s inappropriate relationships with children (myself included). We kind of go, “he may have been a pedophile, BUT he wasn’t evil like all other pedophiles are. Look at his upbringing. Plus, he gave us Thriller!” as if this justifies what may or may not have gone down at Neverland. I’m certainly not advocating criminal activity of any kind, but maybe MJ’s tragic passing will help us open our eyes to the troubled souls around us. While we can’t excuse their behavior, maybe we can try to understand them, instead of writing them off as horrible, evil, unlovable bottom feeders. If you’ll pardon the pun, things are never “black or white”.
I apologize for the long and convoluted response. At the end of the day, I don’t think that MJ was entirely innocent, but I don’t think he was guilty, either. If asked about what I think, I say that he was “troubled”, and leave it at that.
I pray that this extraordinarily gifted, beautiful, loving human being has finally been granted the peace he always deserved.
Now begin the efforts to rewrite Michael Jackson’s history. It is only a matter of time before he is remembered as anything than what he was. This is a common tactic in Hwood and the Jackson family/PR machine is working in high gear to get the ball rolling.
@ omondieu: What you said wasn’t too long–it was beautiful, moving, and true to me. Thanks so much for putting that so eloquently.
there would be no other King of Pop like Michael Jackson. he would always be the King.
I’m not sure if it aired in America, but there was a documentary recently following Tito Jackson and his temporary move to the south of England.
Anyway, Tito called for the help of this guy to work for him etc. Turned out that he was selling inside information to tabloids and informing the paparazzi of their daily whereabouts against Tito’s wishes. He was soon let go – just seems like a manipulative wannabe.
At the end of the day people will believe what they want …… The guy is dead and thats all that matters now ……We have lost a music genious,his children have lost a father and I for one hope he can now rest in peace ….. Tho the press etc dont seem to want him to…….R.I.P Michael XXX
omondieu – great post.
Omondieu, very beautifully written.
yes She was a wee little boy in Drag lipsynching to Dianna Ross..
Omondieu- very well put!
I said the same things to my husband and his family after listening to their incessant, “why do we care about this pedophile” comments and I was able to change their minds. I was never much of a MJ fan, yet I always acknowledged his talent.
When you string together the consequences of being a poor family’s very young, prodigal bread winner and their inability to allow their child a childhood, his overwhelming success and the money (and consequential leeches) that comes with it, it’s certainly conceivable that this would lead to some form of mental illness. And, unfortunately, as an adult, he was able to pay the people around him who basically “yes-ed” him to his death.
Tragic.
Aw, thanks all. That’s really sweet. 🙂 That post actually helped me wrestle with my own feelings towards him. I was never an ardent fan of his while he was living, but like Lori, I always acknowledged his talent, and since his death, have become profoundly interested in him musically, and as a person. I feel terrible for taking his music for granted as I did. But I just felt that he was, and would always be “there”, ya know? He was just omnipresent, and I never thought he’d go away.
Also, if it were so easy to simply label him as “gay”, I have no doubt that dozens of adult men would have come forward by now to share their stories of affairs with him.
Calling him gay is not being disrespectful. I’m gay, I don’t consider it an insult to call someone else gay. The other side of this coin is, if there were any adult women out there who MJ was having sex with, they would have come forward now too. I haven’t heard of a single woman who’s claimed to have had sex with Michael Jackson. Even Lisa Marie won’t come out and say that. Michael clearly wasn’t attracted to women. If you think that’s being disrespectful to him, to just acknowledge the obvious, then I don’t get that.
@ MJ – I don’t consider being called gay to be an insult at all. I myself am highly supportive of the LGBTQ community, and I think that potentially having had Michael Jackson be a member of the gay community would have done wonders for representation and visibility, particularly for gay people of colour.
What I am saying is that I think that Jackson was a very complicated human being, both mentally and sexually. I don’t think anyone can just peg him as “gay” or “straight” (DEFINITELY not the latter). I think he transcended all barriers: racial, musical, and sexual. Like fizXgirl314 stated above, I truly think he was asexual. I think that you and I can agree on the idea that he was “queer”, at the very least. His gender expression definitely did not conform to what’s commonly accepted in heteronormative society.
I humbly apologize if you misunderstood any of the comments I made regarding his sexuality. 🙂
@ omondieu: Excellent post!! It wasn’t too long at all and very interesting to read!
Like you, I too have become greatly interested in his psychological background (even though I’m no psych major) recently, in addition to listening to his music non stop since his death.
It saddens me how he seemed to never enjoy his life and never seemed to know true love, in addition to seeming very lonely even though he had people and animals surrounding him at most times.
I think calling him “gay” is too simple of an explanation too, and there was something more complex lying underneath to explain his sexuality (or lack thereof). Perhaps he was asexual and only could connect emotionally with little boys without the addition of a sexual relationship.
But no one knows the truth about MJ beyond speculation and theories but perhaps we can use this situation to expand upon our definitions of sexuality beyond just “gay”, “straight” “bi” and “asexual”, as well as having just a little more understanding about why pedophiles are the way they are instead of just simply writing them off. There’s alot more than we can benefit from learning.
@Solitary Angel- you’re spot-on in what you said. It never ceases to amaze me that no matter how stupid or ridiculous someone is, as soon as they die, up they go on to the pedestal. Like Anna Nicole Smith- she was a total waste of skin when she was alive. After she died, however, nobody was supposed to mention what a useless ASSHOLE she was. Now there’s MJ…. we can’t say he was a weirdo… oh NO. He’s an ANGEL and anyone who says any differently doesn’t love Jesus and they go to hell and they DIE! What a crock of shit.
And when people say “How would you like people to talk shit about you after you’re dead?” my answer is this: I WON’T CARE- I’LL BE DEAD. And I certainly wouldn’t expect anyone to talk about me like I was Perfection on Two Legs, I’m not. I’m kind of a dick. I drink too much. I say “fuck” a lot. I’m often cranky. I do what I want and I say what I want, and anyone who doesn’t like it can suck it. I also treat my friends well and I love my kid, I’m kind to animals and old people, and I never go into the 10 Items Or Less check-out lane when I have more than 10 items. People will say what they are going to say, whether I’m dead or alive. In life I provide my own validation, and in death I won’t require any further validation at all. So there.
“Even Lisa Marie won’t come out and say that.”
Well, complicating matters, she actually has said that they had a sexual relationship. But that doesn’t mean anything really, or help us understand him any better.
Omondieu – what great posts you write. It’s so nice to see long posts without grammatical and spelling errors, half typed in txtspk that actually have a valid and thought out point. You can have a gold star and go to the top of the class.
Good points, well made.
And I’m with you SO much on the not being an ardent fan when he was alive but now feeling guilty to have taken what he created during his lifetime so much for granted. It’s a cliche, but you don’t know what you got til it’s gone.
Oh…and I meant to say, that ‘bodyguard’ dude is a charlatan. He was interviewed very very early on the live Sky News feed we get in Dubai – it was around 10am my time so maybe 7am in the UK I think…anyway the guy who interviewed him was incredibly scathing cos all the bodyguard dude could say was ‘I’d rather not talk about anything personal to do with Michael’…after the interview I read about how he’d tipped the press off regards Tito’s whereabouts and how he actually only worked for Michael for like 1 hour or something. He’s a clown. Not in a funny clown way. An evil clown.
I really don’t think he’s gay. Lisa Marie Presley spoke about this years ago. I don’t see why it’s still an issue. As for child abuse accusations, the kid in the ’93 case has released statements/interviews that he lied for money… And it worked. And now that MJ’s dead, the guilt has just become too much.
Lori, there has been no statements whatsoever from that child that his claims were made up. That’s a BS story made up on the web.
I don’t believe that MJ was gay or even bi-sexual. I believe that due to his rigid upbringing and “life” in the spotlight, he became ASEXUAL. I don’t think he was capable of a romantic relationship with a woman (or a man, for that matter) … MJ was a “little boy lost”, and I believe that he surrounded himself with kids because he never really grew up himself. I could be way off here, and if he ever DID do anything inappropriate with any children, then he will have to answer for that when he meets his maker. But I will never believe that Michael did anything “wrong” with children. The only thing we can be sure of is that Michael was a musical genius, and a great dancer – and that he was also (despite his riches) very unhappy with himself, lonely and alone. My heart goes out to him … May he rest in peace …
Mizz “T” …
Cletus, great post. Thank you. So many people waste their time reprimanding others on a gossip site re: dead celebs.
Claire, thanks for setting us straight on the fake web story. Tania, don’t you think MJ’s moves were too sexy for him to be an asexual person? In response to O’s;
Also, if it were so easy to simply label him as “gay”, I have no doubt that dozens of adult men would have come forward by now to share their stories of affairs with him.
I say to that, exactly, because there weren’t adult men he’s been linked to.
Dear Cletus:
While you were going off on yourself in your post, you forgot to mention that you are also a narcissist. How many times can one person mention “I” in one post?
well said Kim Moyer.
Some people love to talk mean stuffs about celebrities when they don’t know anything about them. Why dont you take a look at yourself first!? It’s easy to put someone down when you’re not on the public eye. Easy and sad!!!!
cletus… stfu nobody cares what “you” did…
*eyeroll*
what we understood from his Bodyguard is that Michael Jackson has a secret girlfriend, that is true, she is a great and beautiful RWANDAN girl, i know that Grace RWARAMBA they have planned to go to RWANDA before he be very sick. they visit was for a dowry.
So what u all are saying is nothing.
Larissa:
July 3rd, 2009 at 9:33 pm I have this theory , that MJ has suffered from child abuse himself, and yet somehow he found in his lost childhood his greatest escape, he just locked himself in there and never got out! Despite of all his talent ,fame and success that followed , it´s like he remained that 6 years old boy and never allowed himself to grow up!!!
I truly believe he was never the monster ppl tried to make him seem to be, just a troubled boy with an AMAZING heart and talent…and that´s how I´ll remember Michael Jackson!
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I totally agree with you and i wished he was alive.
If you didn’t know Michael personally then everything you hear is hearsay to you. The people that didn’t know him can only assume about his life and you know what assuming does.
HA! It was rumored that Michael had an affair with one of his female band members which caused the break up of his marriage to Lisa Marie. If Michael were gay then everyone would know. I mean seriously have you ever met a gay man that could keep a secret about their sexual encounters? NO!
Tania, Well said!
If Michael mistreated children then it will be in a tell all book from his children when they grow. Also I am sure that the police shearched every inch of his home & if they found something other than the drugs, we would already know about it.
Cletus. You talk of Jesus but do you even know him? He would have loved Michael reguardless. “He who is without sin cast the first stone”. “Judge least ye be judged”. Jesus would have forgiven him & invited him to sit at his table.
Actually there is a mental illness where people who can’t deal with their own reality, revert back to a state of childhood, where it was safe for them. I believe there was a movie about it & the person playing the role was Farrah Fawcett with Richard Gear as her husband. It is called, “Dr. T & the Women” Go Figure…
I think Mr. Jackson was a tormented soul, very disturbed, both emotionally and mentally. I always thought of him as a Large Child, certainly not someone that would harm a child in any way.
I don’t know why some people would take offense in believing that he might have been gay, I see nothing wrong with that. I have gay friends that are in loving relationships. I personally don’t know what to think, perhaps he was Asexual.
Bottom line is that I wish Michael would have found someone special to share his life with, someone that saw the real person, NOT the super star.
i feel that michael did not develop sexually until he was a 30 year old man.It took him that long to catch up. I really truly beleive that michael and lisa marie did have a sexual relATIONSHIP. I think she is the only women michael truly cared about. I donot think he ever got over it.
WELL YEAH HE`S BUT JUST HOPE FOR THE BEST THATS ALL U CAN REALLY DO DUEZS
PLEASE! Secret girlfriend?
Stevie Wonder could see that MJ was gay and probably a pedophile. Wake up people!
Michael did have a secret girlfriend sorry to inform you, one who loved him
and one he loved very much !! He is telling the truth, however Michael kept it secret as she wanted, and I am sure he gave very few details about it, to Matt Fiddes. Michael protected their love just like he did his kids and they had planned to be together after he stopped touring, singing etc. She did not wish to be chased down by the paparazzi and open up her life to the public just yet. So yes there was definitely a love in his life !!
Ima fan for life,he was anexample growing up,and despite all the make up and signs pointing in that direction I was in denial and I wanted to be that proud black straight man role model. The reality was different.I think MJ lived for teh show,he was extremelly talented and smart.He knew what the public wanted to see,he tried to recover his childhood but I believe he was sexually confused and held to his childhood and universal love appeal.But talking stricly sexual after many years I have to admit he was gay.Thats just the way it is even thou he was in denial for many years,and later on kept it from the public and family. Im not homofobic and I love him the same but as an straight man that looked up to him growing up like a superhero I have to admit its a bit of a disapointment.I always chose to believe the crazy macho man stories when the reality was in front of our eyes.He was clearly a single gay parent.I dont think he molested children but he lied to himself in many matters,his surgery,his racial identity AND his sexual identity.I’ve come to study and know so much of him that I begin to understand his games,plans and strategy,his trauma. Being an afroamerican born aorund that time,jehova witness…Lets be honest he went on tour,could have ahd any girl in teh world,he was a black guy from indiana,what was wrong? You guess what was wrong,the biggest secret he took with him til his very last day.
Michael did have a secret girlfriend, sorry to let all of you know. They had a relationship for over 20 years and it was kept secret so that the public could not
break them apart. She asked him to keep it secret as she is not a celebrity and she has no desire to be in the public’s eye! I just thought you would like to know!