It seems like there’s been a rash of adult celebrities confessing their histories of child abuse. This is another one – and once again, I totally believe it. Today’s story comes from Mickey Rourke, who wrote an essay about his difficult childhood for the paperback edition of One Can Make a Difference: How Simple Actions Can Change the World. The book is a collection of essays penned by everyone from the Dali Lama to Bridgitte Bardot, and I believe all the proceeds go to PETA (I think). My guess is that Mickey was asked to write an essay for the collection because he is a big supporter of animal rights, and he considers his cadre of puppies his family.

Fox News Pop Tarts has some excerpts from the essay, and it’s pretty hardcore. Mickey’s stepfather used to beat the hell out of him and Mickey’s mother. Mickey details the rage and fear he used to fear, and how he never dealt with those issues as an adult until he finally hit rock bottom. Once he was down there, Mickey got help from a priest, a therapist, and all of those sweet little ass-kicking Chihuahuas.

Despite all his successes as a screen fixture in the 1980’s, Oscar-nominated actor Mickey Rourke isn’t afraid to admit he was ‘a has-been’ who hit rock bottom in the dark world of addiction and abuse.

However this year’s ultimate ‘comeback kid’ has put his pen to paper and opened up about his harrowing childhood, descent into drugs and his one saving grace – his beloved dogs. Pop Tarts has obtained exclusive excerpts written by Rourke for the new paperback edition of PETA President Ingrid E. Newkirk’s book ‘One Can Make a Difference: How Simple Actions Can Change the World.’

“My stepfather used to crack my head just because he felt like it. He was big, very big, and mean. And he was physically abusive to my mother. I hated the f***er for hurting her, for making her afraid. For years, I wanted nothing more than to take him down. In our neighborhood, there was some community services center set up to give kids a place to go and to keep us out of trouble. That’s where I first found a speed [punching] bag. To me, it represented a ticket to manhood,” Rourke wrote.

“I couldn’t beat my stepfather, so I guess I started taking it out on everyone else over time. When I was an adult, I would fight everywhere, anywhere, for anything. Look at me sideways and you’re gone. I didn’t care about the consequences. I was drinking and taking drugs. But more than that, I was angry and crazy and ashamed of how I’d been treated. I’d been kicked around a lot, so I figured the way to fix this was to lash out.”

Rourke then lamented that it got to a point where he was “so out of control” that directors refused to work with him and he ended up blowing everything from his acting career to his marriage to model Carre Otis before contemplating taking his own life.

“I don’t like to talk about it because I still love her, but when my wife walked out, she said “You need help!” and I thought, “F*** you!” She was right; I needed to change, but I didn’t want to change,” he added. “But one day I looked in the mirror and I saw myself the way others saw me; I saw the armor and I scared the f*** out of myself … Instead of going to a therapist and telling him everything, and I mean everything, it would have been easier just to go to a priest, leave some s**t out, then have him tell me to say some Hail Marys and Our Fathers and that’s that! In fact, I actually did see a priest for a while, a great one who stopped me from blowing my brains out. We’d go in the basement, he’d pour me a glass of wine, we’d smoke cigarettes, and then we’d pray. But I needed a shrink too, so I forced myself to go. I had to learn not to let people push my buttons, find out what was triggering all this rage, and stop throwing things away. I’ve barely missed a therapy session in over a decade, and that takes willpower.”

But religion and therapy aside, “The Wrestler” admitted that his true savior was actually his six rescue dogs that became his own “little family” and taught him responsibility.

“I had to look after them and watch out for them, which meant I couldn’t do the things that were not good for me to do,” Rourke wrote. “I was sitting in a strip club in London a year or more back. Some drunk guy came up to me and started to pick a fight over something he’d read in the paper about “those f***ing little dogs you got!” I asked him to be nice. He got in my face. I stood up but I didn’t do anything. The bouncers came over and put him outside. In earlier years, I would have done him in. It’s not easy not to react, but I work on it all the time. I’m a work in progress; every day I have to remind myself to keep on that road.”

[From Fox News]

I love Mickey. I’ve always had affection for him (Wild Orchid was a big influence on my teen sexuality), but I love the way he’s matured and grown. He seems like a sweetheart, and I do think he’s taken the time, energy and love to rebuild his life and his soul. I’m not sure if I’d hit that (I might, with a couple of glasses of liquid courage), but I’d definitely want to have dinner with him or hang out with him and the dogs.

Mickey Rourke is shown at the Max Azria fashion show in NY on 9/15, out with one of his dogs in NY on 9/14, and out in London wearing blue suede shoes on 9/10. Credit: WENN.com