Kourtney Kardashian turned 40 last April. She threw herself a big bash with her friends, her exes and a cake featuring her favorite pastime, showing her derriere. She’s just launched her lifestyle brand, Poosh. She’s in great shape, thanks to her keto diet. All in all, a great way to start off this next decade. But, as we learned from the latest KUWTK Sneak Peak, this isn’t the case. Kourtney tells sister Khloe that 40 has made her anxious about where she is in life and where she’s going.
“I do think that turning 40, like it almost makes you analyze like where you’re at in your life,” Kourtney told Khloé, 35. “It’s just giving me anxiety.”
When Khloé asked what Kourtney was specifically thinking about, the mother of three — she shares sons Mason, 9, and Reign, 4, and daughter Penelope, 7, with ex Scott Disick — admitted that she wished she had more time.
“Now that I’m doing Poosh, I just always wish I had more time,” Kourtney said, noting her lifestyle website, as she began to tear up. “I feel like I want to cry,” she said.
When Khloé asked “Why?” Kourtney admitted, “it gives me anxiety.”
Kourtney tearfully explained that she doesn’t “know why because then I’m like I have so much and I should just be so happy.”
“But you’re not happy?” Khloé inquired.
“I mean, I am,” an emotional Kourtney replied. “But then sometimes I’m just like it makes you really like analyze just like where you’re at and then I’m like sometimes, ‘What am I doing?’ “
As Kourtney wiped away tears, Khloé asked, “What are you doing wrong?”
While Kourtney believed she was doing “nothing” wrong, and that she was “just living life,” she did admit: “but then sometimes I’m like I’ll just do stupid s— to like distract from really thinking about stuff that is maybe more important. I don’t know. But then half of me is like, ‘Live your life, have fun.’ “
Attempting to comfort her older sister, Khloé shared, “But if that makes you happy, you know that’s completely okay for your life. What if you enjoy the life that you have right now? If you’re happy, that’s all that should matter for any of us. But I really don’t think your soul is happy. I think you feel incomplete somewhere that you’re scared.”
You can watch the clip here. The backdrop is Kourtney’s beautiful backyard with kids happily playing in the pool. Kourtney spends as much time trying to keep her makeup from running as she does expressing where her head is. But that’s the only snark I will throw at her over this because I actually feel a little bad for her. Like Jada Pinkett Smith said recently, a lot of folks think if you have money, pretty real estate and an extensive wardrobe, you should be happy. As if that’s all thatmakes up happiness. But material trappings don’t equate to peace of mind. I only know the Kardashians through clips. It could very well be that Kourtney is a spoiled brat who doesn’t want to work. But I remember when she and Kim had their big blowup (although I suppose any conflict aired on KUWTK should be put in quotes) about Kourtney not working as hard as the other sisters. The line being pushed was that Kourtney is lazy, but I got a whiff of despondency to her un-involvement. Maybe I’m just feeling generous today, but I now see her her Paper Magazine interview in different context. In that article, she said she never expected KUWTK to go anywhere. I wonder, if she went back in time, if she’d choose to be involved with it. And maybe Poosh is more about filling a hole in her and not a hole in the oversaturated lifestyle market. Or maybe she wants to walk away but doesn’t know who she would be if she did, and considers herself too old now to find out.
Or, who knows, maybe this is all just another “life crisis” conceived in the KUWTK writers room.
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I mean, if I were a kardashian doing kardashian things I might wonder what I was doing with my life too. Swanning around in the lap of luxury and peddling diet crap no one needs to young people is not a life of purpose.
Exactly!!
I’m 39 and the feel the same way sometimes about turning 40. However, I also think that I’ve made it 39 years on this damn planet, so that has to count for something.
Forty is nothing. I was 2 years away from getting pregnant with my son at 40. Fifty, however, is a traumatic. I’m in my mid 50’s and time is just speeding by. Physically, I feel great, but looking in the mirror is a shock.
Everything you said sister
I turned 40 last December and it was nothing. Maybe because I had been stressing about 40 since I turned 35 so I was just mentally-prepared for it. I’m also in the best relationship of my life with a great guy so I think that really helped. Still, it’s REALLY weird in that I don’t think of myself as middle-aged at ALL.
Same. I still think the 90s were ten years ago. In my head, I’m 19. So it’s weird when people expect me to be an adult, lol. The only time I feel my age is when I really excited over things like buying a new washing machine.
Hahaha yeah exactly, Jenns! And a new washing machine *is* exciting 🙂
I turn 40 this month and it’s like how did I get here? Sometimes I’m proud of it, and other times I feel like I’m fooling myself pretending to be an adult.
Honestly, I think we all pretend to be an adult. None of us really know what the hell we’re doing. Just go with the flow, learn as you go a long. Don’t you wish you appreciated your youth more now? At 15 we can’t wait to “grow up”. Now we wish we could go back lol.
Well stated ME. It’s true, and if you aren’t careful you can wish your life away.
“ Or maybe she wants to walk away but doesn’t know who she would be if she did, and considers herself too old now to find out.” Yes I agree with that. We tend to look back during big milestones and realize we could have done so much more or carved out a niche for ourselves. It’s a bit of self reflection, not very deep, but I don’t expect her to open up about her fears and anxiety about self. Maybe she realizes she listened to mom too much and could have done way more and doesn’t want to be remembered for KUWTK.
Sounds like she needed a storyline so someone concocted this turning 40 stuff. They’re all so fake.
Exactly.
In response to the question, what is she doing, I would guess, she is trying to get away from her original face as far as possible?
Right? Her eyes in these pics are so….lifted? She used to be the one I thought would actually not mess with her face as much.
Right! I would be crying and asking this as well if I had done all that to my face.
LOL you guys are terrible. And hilarious.
everyone’s lips in that bottom picture look INSANE.
I know! Is that supposed to be a *candid* photo?
They’re all posing like J Lo with the weird dead fish look.
This is one of the few storylines I actually believe – Kourtney hasnt done much of anything career wise besides this show and slapping her name on blogs and random products. Even though Poosh isnt unique/theyre definitely recycling old content from her app – this is the most work shes done since starting the show. That with her turning 40 is probably causing this self reflection and shes realizing she doesnt have much of a contribution to the world besides KUWTK and she wasnt even super interested in that to begin with. I wont be shedding any tears but her life seems kind of empty/shallow…
Turning 40 in Nov. Decided to make this a year devoted to my health and happiness. Bought a new car, visited a place on my bucket list, and have lost 43lbs since Christmas. Now, not everyone can do that. I’m fortunate to be able to. But I do think turning 40 should bring reflection and a focus on one’s well being. Plenty of easy, cheap ways to enhance one’s health and happiness. Try for more sleep. Drink more water. Go for a walk. Cut out toxic people in your life. Enjoy a favorite book, movie, TV show, or music. Eat foods you like that aren’t bad for you. Talk to people who make you laugh. Take a relaxing bath.
Turning 40 is a time to make sure you are taking care of yourself.
Congrats to you. Losing weight is a lot of work. Your attitude is great, and I have a hunch your 40’s are going to be your favorite years.
Yes! Agree with all of this. Glad you treated yourself, Rapunzel and congrats on getting healthier 🙂
NOW????
Am I the only one who assumed all of them were in their 40s already? I’ve admittedly never seen the show but I had assumed Kim especially was early to mid 40s.
How much time does she really spend on “Poosh”? I bet she has people do most of that work for her. She also has chefs, nannies, maids, etc. She has LOTS of time !!! Kourtney, at the beginning, was the hard worker in the family. She went to college, had DASH and a separate Kid’s Boutique on the side. She did most of the work at DASH. After having kids she really changed. Like being a mother is all she wants to do (which is fine). She should just admit that and live THAT life.
That was the cry of a broken lonely heart. I think she has everything except love / partner in life. I am close to her age and I feel the pain sometimes. Maybe she is thinking about how she has been wasting years dating Kendall’s friends and not having a serious committed Relationship in her life since Scott.
I have always found it strange that she dates Kendall’s young male friends. What does she have in common with 20 year old guys as a 40 yr old mother of 3? She must be emotionally immature.
It is physically painful watching these shallow, vapid women attempt to have “deep thoughts.”
Heeeeeeeeere it comes!
It was calculated last year (2018)…the Millennials are the largest adult generation; they’ve overtaken the Baby Boomers.
Next year (2020), the Millennials “officially” turn 40 (Millennial generation is 1980-1996), and, as it was with the Baby Boomers in the mid- to late 1980s, the entire world is going to know every detail about their experience. I’ve noticed during the past couple of months that the “turning 40 talk” has already started.
Advice to Millennials: Relax, read the book “The Happiness Curve”, study up on perimenopause, understand that “middle age” doesn’t really start until around age 50, and keep doing your thing. Turning 40 no longer means you’re “over the hill”–you can thank GenX for that.
Signed,
A 47-year-old X’er, who has worn her hair naturally gray since age 45 (and looks fantastic), went back to school at 44, still goes dancing (at popular clubs, even!), and has a partner who just ran his first marathon at age 51.
I’m 42 and I’m just going to love up this comment.
Thank you! Thanyuhvurrymuhhch!
I consider myself a Gen x’er and I was born in 1981. I cannot related to the Millennials born in 1985 or 1986 etc.
We are xennials! I think Kaiser said that term for people in late 70s and early 80s. I can’t relate to millenials at all. Thank you for easing my anxiety about turning 38 soon. I have no patience or f***s to give.
Well, she has a shit ton of money to go and “figure herself out” if need be. She never will worry about paying bills, keeping a roof over her head or even if god forbid her children need medical care — she won’t be worrying about choosing to pay for medicine or paying rent or buying food. So she needs to calm down, and if she wants to do something meaningful — pick a charity or a cause and actually WORK for it. Or she could accept that she has an amazing life, beautiful healthy children, and pet projects that she can dabble in without worry to her $$$.
This last year she likes to whine and complain A LOT, buuuuuuut she never takes a pro-active course to try and find her fulfillment in one way or another so I can’t really feel sorry for her.
Commenters can be simultaneously so “woke” and yet so cruel. I feel for her. Even if this is juiced up for the show, it’s coming from a real place, surely. I think being a Kardashian could feel extremely lonely.
She is so beautiful to me. When she cries it’s like a telenovela actress.
At the ripe old age of 66 I have no more f*cks to give. That’s the best part of aging. And quite frankly I’m having the time of my life. I’m in love, I have a nice home, I’m retired and can spend my time painting, cooking, teaching and practicing Reiki, in a couple of weeks Mr. Jaded and I are taking a cruise up the inside passage to Alaska with our best friends, I volunteer at a cat shelter, I survived breast cancer, I work out 5 days a week, I live in a wonderful city, I look great for my age, the list goes on.
I don’t give a rodent’s posterior about any Kardashian and with each passing decade Kourtney should be grateful for all she has, not what superficial things she thinks she’s losing as she ages.
I’m also 40 this year, and have spent a huge amount of my 30s in a permanently conflicted and unhappy headspace, putting way too much pressure on myself. I spent (wasted?) a large portion of my 30s assuming it’s all going to be better when I wake up 40 and I’d be rational, calm, happier and 50lbs lighter.
I’ve recently just started taking pressure off myself, and being happy and contented with what I’ve got and what I’ve made of it. It’s not that I stopped caring, it’s that I stopped worrying. It really was such an exhaustive waste of energy and headspace.
As for Kourtney Kardashian – maybe she should follow the example of Jaden Smith and do something truly altruistic and selfless, that would be a heck of a legacy and an example to set to her friends, family and peers.
I’ll be having anxiety to if I’m 35 y.o and has done nothing in my life other than filming a crappy show~ whining gets you nowhere, you need to do something about it. you have the time and resource to do so….
Like I totally like hope she like works though this like existential crisis.
I GET her point, I do. I’m almost 30 and I have this crazy what next feeling because I’m married seven years, have two beautiful girls, a job a love, a husband I love, family from both sides that I love and everything is just looking up roses but, WHAT NEXT. So, I do understand when she wonders what she’s doing but I have a very hard time feeling bad for someone who is so financially secure, financially stress free, who is healthy, has healthy kids and access to things some of us may never have. I think she really needs to step away from it all for a bit.